In continuation from my last post where I stated that I have been going through a sort of battle with my emotions this month (moods of anger, frustration, confusion, irritability to that of joy and utter gratitude) have not waned. This morning I woke up early and energized. I was excited to start the day, and was thankful to be in a good mood. As the hours progressed though, that feeling waned and moved on to other less likeable emotions.
One thing that I have intuitively felt the past few days is that I need to be easy on myself, and accept the situation as it currently is without attaching to the emotion or story that I feel. I have gone for a massage and a facial. I have also gone into a nail salon just for a 10 minute foot massage (I LOVE reflexology). Today I went for a hair cut. You see, the massages, the facial, the haircut, it was all part of me feeling like I needed to do more releasing. Releasing not only the stress my body and cells contain, but also any old energy that I simply do not need anymore. The same for my haircut – it felt good to physically see my curls drop to the floor (no worries – I only had about 1.5 inches cut).
More about my haircut and my stylist. I first met Gaby 5 years ago when I moved back to NYC from living in Europe. I was still working in the corporate world, and just really starting out on my spiritual journey. Gaby had such a beautiful energy to her, and we connected immediately. Over the years we became close, exchanging stories about subjects ranging from traveling, organic foods/vitamins, books, crystals, shamanism, knitting, and the list goes on. She has heard many (too many) stories of my ups and downs with work, men, and living as an artist.
Today I started with expressing my concern about my moods and how I’m not feeling like my normal self. She responds ‘welcome to the club!’ She smiled as I looked at her quizzically. She then proceeded to tell me about a link that she read which describes what’s in store for us in Jan 2013. What she told me seemed to hit the nail right on the head.
She emailed me the link, and upon returning home, I of course immediately read it. All I can say is that if you have also been experiencing a little bit of emotional instability since the year started – don’t worry, you’re not insane. Here is the link. Please please please pass it on to those who may be feeling the affects. It really does help to know we are not alone.
Gaby and her husband are moving to Ohio in two weeks, and are expecting their first child in March. My friend – thank you for your listening ear, your advice and your beautiful smiling spirit. My curls have never received such love from anyone else, and they (I) will certainly miss you!